Friday, 23 July 2021


farmed and milled
stabbed with a pitch an
dropped in your gin


closing my eyes i taste the earth
in you the hunger of an arid
land everyone wrote

like me and you like
me and 


Thursday, 22 July 2021

picture this

the flanks of chalk made colorful clouds 

now they could see her feelings

on the blackboard. still

nobody could know what really happened 

to her 4 telling the truth was

against the rules in a world of cream

pies and blue skies  

she took the white soldiers 

and broke them   #katyamills

Wednesday, 21 July 2021


we met in the deep night of our despair
like candles we cast some wavering 
unpredictable glow over the darkness 
our monsters walking the walls we knew 
we could not last 
our energy burning hot 
guarded close to the heart 
so we talked until our tears dried
our pain shared pushed round by the wind
then in that hopeless place we made a pact
sincere and fought like hell   #katyamills

Tuesday, 20 July 2021

america today

heavy metals
market forces
labor and currency
eclipsing authority
system proof seeking
you cannot live
unless you give her
your all


Monday, 19 July 2021

the news

like soda and red meat and cigarettes and amphetamines and downers and painkillers they swore off the news. now they have no idea what's going on and it's the best thing that never happened

Sunday, 18 July 2021

worlds like poems

some will be clear and bright 

and calm others

hot messy dangerous some 

will endure others gone in an instant

collective memory keeps them alive

like poems worlds begin

and end  #katyamills

july. heated love

i cannot slacken the pace 

without work i am nothing

she said filling out the unemployment forms 

gulping polish vodka. an easy forgotten sense of safety 

danced toe to heel in the darkest corner of the bar

he lit the newport @ the edge of her lip and

with hopes of having her

played therapist   


Friday, 16 July 2021

Thursday, 15 July 2021


run on 4 hours sleep

ice cream for breakfast wash

it down with house coffee they

dont paint a great face they wont

talk too much smack they aint 

buttoned up in the finest fabrics 

they just work hard a long day

ahead and they mean it 

sincerely   #katyamills

Wednesday, 14 July 2021


its serious

she been seeing things again 

someone got roped into a fiasco

someone needs saving

she tells him but he dont believe

hes looking for an angle 

a tenderness to attack he 

wants to start a fight



Tuesday, 13 July 2021


im a yarn ball rolling

under the door and out into the sun 

im less complicated 

they only need me when its cold im

less arrogant than u see i dont

know nothin i got holes in me cuz 

im unlearnin stuff  


Monday, 12 July 2021


over the blast of the nor'easter

he yelled give er a little gas!

the panting dog of a truck 

fired up she clawed the wheel

he pushed with all of his might

defrosting in the booth 

of a diner a half hour later

they laughed and laughed 

and laughed   #katyamills

Sunday, 11 July 2021


on the tongue

sense of time and place and mood

and position dissolved

one matter arose like a tithe 

to settle a turbulent spirit

they took the deepest breath

and had it out    




i stir the dregs

with boiled water and write 

simple lines expressin

how it feels to be



Friday, 9 July 2021


the sunflowers drink like you drink

she said filling up the vase

again. she rearranged them so they heads

looked all around the room

missing nothing



Thursday, 8 July 2021


after all kinds of sophistry

they finally read something honest

in a world detoured from books

they had just about given up 


they thought wrong they

caved they pushed the tablet into the portal 

surgically wired into they chest

where the heart once 

resided   #katyamills

Wednesday, 7 July 2021


life's not been easy

may get harder 

hold on and take your time

stay in your truth

don't let them dictate

be the diamond 



Tuesday, 6 July 2021

twenty twenty (one)

the old world on tv looks like fiction

but it was so damn real

the angels the devils alternately saving 

terrorizing souls. the greatest angels are devils

disguised. beneath their wings

a million lives of quiet desperation nothings

changed   #katyamills

Monday, 5 July 2021


fire in the ocean 

color in the sky

independence 4 

some. the rest

forced to the ground

eat dirt. i. what i

have i like to give

so they. they

can taste some

too  #katyamills

Sunday, 4 July 2021


sometimes it's 

4th of july in my mind i

got more than i bargained for. god gave life

wash it down with milk

amped up from a colorless

granular primordial

base   #katyamills

Saturday, 3 July 2021


you wanted to be someone 

you could be anything you

could be someone you could 

be yourself   #katyamills

Friday, 2 July 2021

been so long

oh the dawn when all thats wrong

in the world made right

the light come even into the sky

i could stay with you here for ever

and ever. been so long since it rained i

think im gonna cry  #katyamills

Thursday, 1 July 2021

mile 10

they found the old locomotive stuck  

ina dreary railyard 

ten miles from country meadows

arranged some flowers in 

her smoke stack rang her passenger 

bell a couple times on a prayer

she might live again


Wednesday, 30 June 2021

smile of smiles

the fight of fights 
like it never gonna end
furniture trembling
the kids with fingers 
in ears 


the smile of smiles
rose from the east
they ran to the windowsill
drunk off oblivion


Tuesday, 29 June 2021


writing verses

sleep. black liner circles

the eyes

the one who sings

cannot speak

everyone come to the center

soft body contact

the lyrics

the breath 

the hearts

the beat  



death was


unpacking all 

the bad karma you 

accumulated against 

the good

life was juicy

a study in animation

test flight of the soul  

not to demonize



Sunday, 27 June 2021


when the pulse is heavy and slow

when you could sleep a million years

thoughts cannot find a flow 

too tired for tears. let the music 

touch you   #katyamills

red tail

alone at the end of the day
eyes weakened by screens
lunging at air like a bull i
was visited by a red-tail hawk
he gave me the vision i 
thought i had lost  


Friday, 25 June 2021

life in

oil on the chain balance the wheels 

riding they bike round town real slow 

the day long timing the lights just right

you see memories of poverty not all

bad the simple things all 

they had   #katyamills

Thursday, 24 June 2021


breaks away like a tormented soul 

within the heart of a wild horse i

talk to it carefully like a child

honestly. you cannot have we 

cannot afford it. here. come with me 

let's go outside and run. maybe 

make friends. we cannot

have and better without


Wednesday, 23 June 2021

mi gatos

hiding under blankets

listen to momma liquefy

oats ice bananas 

green and brown eyes with 

coffee spaced out super

perdidos obsessed by 

birds   #katyamills

Tuesday, 22 June 2021


some beet faced drunk knocked

produce off the stand

dodging shadows stepped 

on garlic cloves 

the masks had just come off

that sound

the flesh breaking under 

paper skins

you paid me a compliment

 i - i wasnt sure i 

could take it   #katyamills

Monday, 21 June 2021

they (don't) care

they don't care

what you may think or say or

feel. find something you love

put your heart in it and 

never give up


Sunday, 20 June 2021


like a secret 

in the nucleus 

of the yolk

of the eye

we defy analytics



sharpened by 

the guarantee of 



to be dulled

by screens

technology or



Saturday, 19 June 2021

cat and bird

blondy and the black cat 

brothers contemplative for hours 

on this high balcony

only a mouth

full of feathers

will end the procession 

of cans


Friday, 18 June 2021

some kids

like frozen planets they 

lived long in darkness with space

they fell into orbit waiting

for the sun to inhabit 

they potential. centuries

away long since learned the art of solitude

to free up they water

and colors


Thursday, 17 June 2021

(grow) up

when dead broke the bills 

get big and ferocious they yell at you 

late @ night cant get no sleep

growing up u discover u

your own problem now 



Wednesday, 16 June 2021


growing up in new england they

was a gale wind pushing 

they voice through cracks in the mortar

wailing. no such tolerance

like everyone pulled together for 

all kinds of weather 

you got miscast who 

would fight for you? thrown on stage 

good luck remembering 

your lines     #katyamills

Tuesday, 15 June 2021

heavy metals


staring at the wall again

they turned up the volume

zero calorie heavy 

metals to defend against they



Monday, 14 June 2021

put ups from jellybean

on a day we cant get no 

breaks you gave me ups 

my jellybean. growin up got only

put downs. bass without

treble you gave 

me ups when i most 

needed  #katyamills

Bukowski's wife

she waited for him to get that out of his system

being loved being celebrated by the world

for his poems. finally. all the other women came and went

she could just as easily have felt scorned she

coulda chose not to be born she

got brave and some say stupid she loved him

for the rest of his days  #katyamills

vox perdu

woke up without her
devastated. how they gonna make it?
not knowing sign
or nothin

she had boxed up her songs
folded the arms and legs of little sayings
tongue in cheek

only a regimen of herbal tea
gratitude and salt water gargles would
bring her back



Friday, 11 June 2021


they called you a loner they

thought of you 


every day of the week god

given to seek


made mainstream look 



Thursday, 10 June 2021

pack of cigs

say you went from a pack a day to nil
traded away the shit you no longer
need dull knives old clothes
the speed. diabetes wanted your
eyes. smoke breaks upcycled into meditation
shadows given the light treatment they
could not take your vision



took the words from the margins

boiled them down and drank they

essence. lead from the pencil

kinda killed but worth every 

swallow   #katyamills

Tuesday, 8 June 2021

before life

before life

they found refuge in film and music and books

withdrawn from the world



when they awoke

living became the premier



Monday, 7 June 2021

spell of ablation

they cast a spell 2 undo

all the pretense 

made of crushed pearl

okinawa tea

unrelenting pressure 

earth wind and



Sunday, 6 June 2021


moving towards 

on phones with cords we 

wanna be okay but we 


mobile hotspots 

hooked up with all the bars

then out of touch 

again. traveling up the stitchwork 

of our scars

umbilical we anticipate 

gettin cut


Saturday, 5 June 2021


the call came in at 444 

half the way out the door they

answered in a rainbow frame of mind

happier than hell 4 the big gruff voice

underneath it all someone cared 

they still cursed him out

for insulting they friend

he apologized from the top of cloud 

nine   #katyamills

Friday, 4 June 2021

0400 yum

shell station 

0400 hours in my

army green tights 

friday morning 

got you laughing @ the coffee island

sipping machine 

made hot chocolate 

in slippers humming 



Thursday, 3 June 2021

like pressure makes diamonds

up all night i remember us

survival turns seconds into minutes

sealed inside like pressure creates 

an equilibrium by which we

can roll. time got nothing on us

the city still and quiet makes

diamonds. we meet in the park after

dawn   #katyamills

Wednesday, 2 June 2021

single mom

looking for meaning

cooking and cleaning

down to protect this

fighting off xxxxx's 

smile may be forced 

4 you and your



for hours 

she could not fall asleep 

he trying to keep his brother off

the streets we going to work every day they 

take time to truly listen you 

got something to say? 

what time what? 

say it!


Monday, 31 May 2021

all of this is hard

you gotta fight for what
you believe in

anything you don't fight 4
probably ain't worth much

anyway   #katyamills

Sunday, 30 May 2021


walked a rocky path into a river they
got swept away
left a part of her behind in
the broken clay 
artifact of those games
we all play heartbreakers 
of the world unite and 
take over  


sounds like bees

like indy cars life 

engine buzzing 

flies by

checkered flags 

means your through

hopefully they made it

2 the finish line


the girlfriend 

the wreaths

cow milk

4 you



Friday, 28 May 2021

years of not

summer approaches 

the road is hot

to love once again 

after years of 



Thursday, 27 May 2021

so damn sugar

i fall super behind i

take a hundred breaths 

gotta be kind 

to my poor sodden 

mind. battle the ants 4 

sugar i won't say sorry 

for being damn



Wednesday, 26 May 2021


taken by an idea you

went for mass production

fame and fortune @ a cost unforeseen 

your kids all grown up now

redline the concept car

spread the gull wings 

fly it offa cliff to break with 

the waves


Tuesday, 25 May 2021

night and day

between night

and day there are 

infinite expressions 

of light. being nonbinary 

is equally intricate

and irrefutable 



when the sun hit the sky

the disturbance had washed out

they body and mind 

a formerly great splash

of paint. how peaceful life

again had become

when the sun genuflect

met and crossed the sea 


Monday, 24 May 2021

alameda again

man with a pipe of tobacco paces 

in his own head. isis flops 

on her back undeterred by cars and sarah's 

slovak commands plays

dead    #katyamills

alt version...

old man nurses a pipe of tobacco
paces the sidewalk slow
black vest and chain he strikes a dead stop
composing the thoughts in his head
where anyone would love
to compose. isis flops on her back
undeterred by cars and sarahs slovak commands
tongue out plays dead

Sunday, 23 May 2021

seattle revisited

walking wide awake eyes 
down the blue eyeliner jumping like a heartbeat
on the blonde valet 
the architecture lopes to the water's edge 
in this uphill town
time for café au lait
feels like rain again
the ships they head
to sea


Friday, 21 May 2021

closer to nirvana

no makeup no facelift

the lead singer at the beggars 

banquet crashes into us all

disrupting our moral patagonia

sourced fiber how dare you?

i am closer to nirvana 

may as well be 1989 here 

in olympia nothings changed 


Thursday, 20 May 2021


woven like maseratis 

in and out the lanes 

giving no fucks we 

under the avocado tree 

made love slept 



Wednesday, 19 May 2021


the crows fight the wind for me 

and my burrito in this corazón of cloudy misty sea

far from our valley of perpetual 

sunshine where down moods 

cannot anchor

you asked for a kiss

and i gave


Tuesday, 18 May 2021


tapioca gridlock ina paper straw 

deep in thought dog playing dead ina street

sometimes u gotta suck real hard 

to get free



like birds without songs
red arrows 
stitched in the


we are small
we are essential


the sea

above the sea

a lonely barn flanked with stables

where horses once hung

their heads


the sea cannot be 


you become a boy

place a flower in my hair 

she thunders she 

outlives us 



Monday, 17 May 2021

Daly City

only the perseverating winds

keep these homes from tumbling 

into the sea. deaf and dumb we stare 

and listen. only your arms

keep me  #katyamills

Friday, 14 May 2021


whenever they thought they was
struggling they felt back
to when they really

no money
no home no real
friends around

isolated by they world
the chaos in they

the hard water
softens when super


Thursday, 13 May 2021

wheat and chaff

in opposition to the world

while we sleep 

like a philosopher devoted

2 make sense of it all

 our dreams they

separate the wheat 

from the chaff 


Wednesday, 12 May 2021

cross current

news of the conception 

of your second child fights for celebration 

against the prevailing tide

the very day she died


mount shasta

like another world
we had been waiting for
you appeared

hiding behind clouds

closer and closer we


Monday, 10 May 2021

be with

in a city
for the first time you
don't have to do nothing
but be with
walk around and explore
leave your damn phone
at home


olympia reverb

we got off the sleater-kinney avenue
exit my friend joking would you
sleep with a riot girl?

if i could sleep with a concept i probably would
does that sound desperate?

outside a veteran on an insult parade
badgered a dope fiend using a wheelchair
ready to kill rock stars



saturday night 

almost moms day

six pack of tacos to go 

on northgate we froze

cars collided


one stepped out behind 

an air bag

arm sliced 

i gave my shirt

4 a tourniquet

everyone thinking 

about moms how

we wouldn't even be here 

without them


Friday, 7 May 2021


i wanna make
more memories
can only pick up
the ones we had

dearest Ofa

after breaking down
i get up. you would want me

be strong
do the good


Thursday, 6 May 2021


all patches leather sound and
symbol - Redding, California -
an entire crew of Mongols blasted past us
in pairs lone wolf edging the breakdown
lane.  i got so excited i
don't know why?

 i guess them tēlecine ghosts
found a way to cross
over  #katyamills

Wednesday, 5 May 2021

hotel 50

we stand together

midway through life

a social distance from the muddy

banks with tablets coloring

an endless supply of rain

the hotel carpet prints a map 

we refuse to follow 

on fumes of espresso

we live on endless supply 

of dreams


Tuesday, 4 May 2021

what the whip poor will

1:11am. macrobid wages war 
in the gut. i wake startled
eyes bloodshot hair reaching up and back
a victoria crowned pigeon i 
audit yesterday. submit my findings 2
the memory bank and retire at dawn 
floating prayers off the balcony
to my dear colleague in 
the ICU


Monday, 3 May 2021

come as you went

oh sky of monster clouds and glass

hillsides vert from rain. you produced the sound

we follow south to where it ends and

underneath the bridge oh sullen

aberdeen    #katyamills

@ the market

proprietors of fish
walk the stones in aprons
hagglin with grease pens rumblin
over flavor skin and locale. onlookers teeth
pull apart the connective tissue
unable to satisfy the hunger
they walk away
the amity of the vendors
not 100% lost to them


Saturday, 1 May 2021

portland or

creatures of sacramento 

in this moody leaden town 

pining for words we were

sun salutations in line 

across from new orleans donuts 

swept off to pee before we could enter 

the incomparable city 

of books


Friday, 30 April 2021

olympia wa

stopped in olympia late

afternoon tank of gas bottoming out

rusty dome of the capital 

crested the tree line

the road climbed then descended

to a main drag of weathered storefronts 

early not late model 


we fell a little in love 


bs got cut

all the gods

descending from the sky

live as vagabonds

cutting bs with a blade 

tangential 2 the skin

carve they names

from the outside 

in   #katyamills

Wednesday, 28 April 2021


blood in the urine they

thought they may

die 1.4 liters kombucha

to kill a uti. how come death  

did not sound so terrible 




submerged in vodka fallen

ona plastic sword 


miasma of garlic

and capers they 

brokered a deal for 


all the 

colored lights whirling 

around this fishbowl 

carnival some called




the birds gave up 

stopped singing they

mulled about their nests 

feathered up and tucked

in. lost in a doomscroll

from hell my phone 

was chirping about

something i friendless

tuned out 


cat on a cold sushi roll

 i was stretching my wrist out

twirling the cat on the sushi roll

round and round and round

a random day off. the work

was slowly killing me one screen

at a time. you told me when

you closed your eyes and listened

to me typing you thought of all the

crazy shit must be going through

my mind #katyamills

Monday, 26 April 2021

seattle. early spring

glass rises up from the waterfront and you and me
we are specks. i am drawn to higher ground with recollections of cities i've known
we stop for a breath looking down on the ships in the sound  
your hair the color mermaid i grab your hand. i must not let go
you yearn to return to the sea       #katyamills

Friday, 23 April 2021


life will always be a tragedy will

always be a comedy. may it be the most dramatic 

breathless thing you've ever known 

and go down fighting


Thursday, 22 April 2021

heart out

life is a one way 

ticket outta

town - so - we may as well live

from the heart



Wednesday, 21 April 2021

the book nobody read

the book nobody read lived in a cell inside they head
the defense for freedom argued nobody will be harmed
but the words got in the way     #katyamills

Tuesday, 20 April 2021


a murder of crows landed 

in the birch south of the second 

story window. we crouched 

like tigers aperture wide with 

teeth. i'm dead


Monday, 19 April 2021

lost in cityscapes

in between dreams i had gone for a pee

then fell back under

my arm wrapped around you

palm pressed into your belly


i found myself again lost in cityscapes 

only this time your 

cat eyes beside me softened 

the searching



death of a publisher

without you

we keep writing

on a spare wheel empty tank 

stormy night without a windshield 

broken headlight

no spare change in enemy



Saturday, 17 April 2021

retail paradise

how i fight 

the urge to overspend

depositing myself in retail 

paradise how very



Friday, 16 April 2021


so you like 
slow cars 
and silence 
living alone
no tv
no kids
so you got
strong meds
no voices no 

so you got 
somethin 2 
say what 
is it?


Thursday, 15 April 2021



coffee and

classical music 

i must be thoughtless


for worlds come

into view


Wednesday, 14 April 2021

joie de vivre

on the roughest days they

turned up the radio 

hoping joie de vivre might 

rub off. the no knock warrants of mood 

and memory 

how lucky

to be alive


Tuesday, 13 April 2021

life after cancel

long days on the beach

picking fights with invertebrates 

up and down like a sandpiper

marking the shoreline

erased by the tides


Monday, 12 April 2021

levee road

the heat threatening 
shopping carts pushed
into the canal geese 
hissing we walk the levee
fortified in 1850 after 
the last great flood now
become a road and 
we don't care we
don't scare


Sunday, 11 April 2021


out from under

hundreds of miles of cassette tape

and wires. useless and bound by 

an ethos of noninclusivity they

patched it together they

sang they own wobbly

song til someone 

came around


Saturday, 10 April 2021


composing worlds in solitude

what a way of seeing something missing

bringing into being what

you seeing

they can go there 

all who belong


Friday, 9 April 2021

the prince is dead

beholden to the union jack they

cried the prince is dead! 

nobody could recall the day

a child was born with a royal

stake. the screenagers in great piety  

dropped phones and made a vape tornado 

to celebrate the deceased 

the end of life leased


Thursday, 8 April 2021

in the wake of the British exit

and covid lockdown Belfast began to immolate

rocks and petrol bombs the 

working class weapons

a few hundred years 

ago we dumped their tea in protest

of tariffs we could not get the redcoats to

to leave


Wednesday, 7 April 2021


mineral green her eyes

the color of the river

Nile. over middle earth 

to the sea she moved 

the world in sultry 



Tuesday, 6 April 2021

once upon a time in april

we got free phones free

shots in the arms waiting 

in lines. we got sun rays we got fools 

days without showers we

got flowers   #katyamills

off the coast of friendship

we could tell the future
by the birds gone quiet
a change in the winds
our energy jumped
full of dread we shouted out!
like we gonna perish

then the storm subsided
left our faces wet and salty
lush and flush 4 the sunshine


Monday, 5 April 2021


solitary horn opens the cathedral

8am. stained glass dove etched

in the dome. weary-eyed bishop

golden marked robes. you can't have 

communion if you ain't a saint and 

who wants to be anyway


Saturday, 3 April 2021


known more 

4 the absence of faith

than faith

they followed a feeling

bought a taco

4 a hungry



Friday, 2 April 2021

blanco y

grew up white ina world 

where nobody hurt you like 

you hurt yourself where if you

got any color and spirit you 

got beat down now how can it be 

any wonder in the world 

today white is unpopular 

distrusted despised? 


Thursday, 1 April 2021


laserfiching with blueprints 

they mapped out grand plans

thanking all gods

they was trans


Wednesday, 31 March 2021

slow mo

tail end of the nightmare pandemic

an extended slow mo hug was greater

than any antidepressant stronger than

any drug    #katyamills

Tuesday, 30 March 2021

life once was song 
created and produced by crickets
ina full throated silence


flying down a dirt road at dusk 
consumed with emotion 

she demands 
we find another


lover girl boy

she choreographed the words
by heart channeled to the lips
conducted by the tongue she
wanted him he wanted
her. the earth shook the
ground beneath cut up into zigzags they
held their ground they
held hands across the divide
and made the world


free the ever given

endless tugboats and an egyptian

full moon high tide

could not dislodge the floating 

skyscraper lost its bearings in a sandstorm

blocking the artery

giving the world a stroke


Sunday, 28 March 2021

static pop

the more involved 
they was the harder 
2 disconnect. when tugged upon 
ina loving direction they
wires uncrossed 

the sparks

how they



Friday, 26 March 2021

re.set deux

abandoned they car by golden
arches campers panhandlers
broke up a field of mustard they
kept a journal and the basics
nothing much. feckless wasted burnt
off they last sawbuck on god knows
what. chin up. dodgin reality
the life of the broke woke 
and idle


Thursday, 25 March 2021

navel (gaze)


2 the tune of a minor threat horn section

stopping traffic

they relived the days they 

were inseparable




are when you are you

are not when

you are 



Tuesday, 23 March 2021


they took no umbrage

amidst another tumultuous attempted overthrow 

born under the lights they faced a hundred million semi-happy believers

palms together they smiled without 

a smile




resistance turned

overt in the year of got nothing

to lose


Saturday, 20 March 2021

true crime

rolling thoughtful eyes

a milky soporific

tea leaves discarded in an angry

drain.  too long i let it steep too long. i'm sorry

a confession

the weapon



Friday, 19 March 2021


the roads still glistening with dew they 
carved a 180 @ the 5432 
café. a pour over black no creamer
for the dreamer 


Thursday, 18 March 2021

the hundred

like a storm cloud 

both - and + charged 

a hundred days they 

venture until




Wednesday, 17 March 2021


you tore into us
drunk again
one of your moods 

i tried to make 
myself small i
stood out like a cherry 
on a sea of whipped 


Tuesday, 16 March 2021

Monday, 15 March 2021

in the ozone

some choose some are chosen 

mixing it up with song and dance

others paid to capture 

and serve to witness in silence

the ultraviolet



corner of over and under

born of a lavender haze
inspiration found an untimely death 
at the corner of over and


the little things

shadows under bridges under

trains under eyes the postcards they 

got from a distant memory friend 

could lighten they darkest 




Friday, 12 March 2021

return of the ghost of green eyes

ona street confronted 

by the ghost of green eyes

talks to them feeling they 


knows how to hiss forgot 

how to love

got some crumbs

for you here and some


crying now? 

whatsoever 4 

the ghost of green

eyes they remember 

this was 



bronzed with nails of gold

sick of waiting on hold 

she threw her hair back 

gotta jump on her '89 Peugeot 

to Dallas. intercepting lines with a decadent hum

intermittence of back lit squares

mascara and eyeliner bold

triumphant she got in on the other

side and out of the cold



Wednesday, 10 March 2021

scrambled march

on zoom we 
were less than full power
like degrees of forests 
set to the tenth april 


Tuesday, 9 March 2021


when the magic dried up the
onlookers moved 

the suits 
jacks and queens in diamonds
the spades and lonely hearts
the kings

leaving them
only true 


Monday, 8 March 2021

2021 royal

royal in a dollar store 

sucking the life out a green apple 

lollipop coupled with angst

the dyed hair the 

cell phone stare the resignation 

of the throne. the press stalks

with bloody mary


Sunday, 7 March 2021

green and blue days

the whippoorwill calls and calls

into the silence. no one answers 

what once they shared

now severed beyond 



Saturday, 6 March 2021


yes freedom also means you have the right to believe anything no matter how patently false unequivocally backwards and unceremoniously walk away from common sense and wisdom to devote your entire being to the pursuit of social injustice and economic inequality. you live with yourself. 

Friday, 5 March 2021

current z

the boy made worlds

where they could live

the girl commanded the currents

to lean back 

not take no one

too far out where they 

would or could

get hurt 


Thursday, 4 March 2021


i got a promotion this week -- Clinical Director -- at excited to make a greater impact for our community ... listening and speaking from the heart ... helping my team of outpatient case workers support our people out in South Natomas and North Highlands ... life is more and more challenging on the streets ... what with mental illness and socioeconomic challenges ... cultural/racial injustices. i ask myself every day: what more can i do to help? at least i have a small platform and some skills to offer. 8 years clean off the hard stuff. what with the poetry, the books, my friends, as a therapist, life keeps getting more and more exciting.

Wednesday, 3 March 2021

4 keeps

the days unsparingly dull 

then when they lay down to rest 

the dreams like a thriller

replete with all the life they could not have 

encouraged to be somebodys

project dependent and broken they 

sometimes forgot 

the best about them

self what was for keeps


Tuesday, 2 March 2021

Monday, 1 March 2021

bad reel

some introductions fizzle

from the start like a film with award winning acting cinematography and stunts

a musical score to die for  

yet the screenplay shallow piss

poor. a non event a bad



Sunday, 28 February 2021


(remix of dys.phoria)

soft thin and lying against
a negative space

the air cool industrial alive

4 a moment we don’t have to care

how strange

secret messages penned by the rain

upon leaded glass

in a blanket on your couch
electric the infinite tenderness



the world

whether or not you can keep up with her

provides random bursts

of euphoria

to live there a second longer

to live there to



Friday, 26 February 2021


negotiating the hill

to your home the emo

set a dangerous 

tone like an alto circling

a tenor who felt dead

alone in a cosmos 

the shy of heart never



Thursday, 25 February 2021


the left kept charging the right

kept charging the rain kept washing away

society and unrest

an honest condition

you kept coming and they

kept pushing 

away     #katyamills

Wednesday, 24 February 2021

@ the mall

divergent they
struck out for the mall
one tall the other small
hot topix for septum rings
starry eyes
jewelers bling. they
hearts got pierced where they wanted
without tears without
a flame the long and hard
adieu they understood
they were the


Tuesday, 23 February 2021

the one

momma brought them 


searching for they

name brushing

they soft and storied 

coat round they 

long and emerald




under the influence

a stubborn yellow light

in a ramshackle hollow

breakin the tight weave

of farmland a scribbler

may do they best work 


notes from a cardboard box

two story high 

imagination roams cream 

walls french vanilla

sky. entresol the cats

survey new lands 

from a cardboard 

box we have 




killing on 43rd ave

they sweep and mop they 

stock shelves they 

ring you up at the register they

deal with all american 

attitude. we call it the graveyard

shift for good reason last

week they left one to bleed

out for some 

change. god rest your very



Sunday, 21 February 2021

tuned out

twenty one suns 

one and twenty years 

into the so-called twenty first century 

none of the calculations 

had any true significance when 

you tuned the holy roman

empire out 


journey into the light

there there 

dry your eyes

the darkness drains from the sky

see how you were so certain?

so terrified 

the thoughts how they




they would not let machines

take from life 

the mystery

the work 

that made them



Saturday, 20 February 2021


they found her 

still alive they loved her

they promised 

hi def pixels for eyes

cold brew coffee for drive

she prayed for a vertically 

integrated chassis they

dubbed her



Monday, 15 February 2021


they never stopped 

scrubbing one could see 

their reflection in the silver

 nothing else. imagine centuries  

passing that off 4 



off note

the dissonance caused by all 

the off notes touched a hundred 

thousand hearts who turned 

the radio up and swore 

someone finally got them 


Saturday, 13 February 2021

run over

weightless the body

in flight. carbon monoxide 

swell of heat 

spun up so light the strange 

sound of brakes so late

they cheat 

staring down they 

fall in the winter off the 

wall of metal



Friday, 12 February 2021

book review


Katya Mills rated a book liked it
My Year of Rest and Relaxation by Ottessa Moshfegh
Our antiprotagonist gets progressively mired in her chosen selfish sedentary life for a year. Like a life experiment with a careless interest in self-transformation, in NYC, 1999. She lies to her psychiatrist about her use of prescriptions for no apparent reason, as the psychiatrist has no moral or ethical compass to begin with, just a professional hiding behind a lot of jargon and bullshit. Ever met anyone like that? The character closest to real is her best friend Reva yet she is the most annoying and pathetic of them all. Materialistic. Superficial. Zero self-worth. Dependent on guys who use her. They both are. Maybe this is why they are friends. I liked the book, laughed a lot. Some very funny one liners. But not as much as Eileen. Maybe the main character was too sad and jaded. A product of her environment. Maybe it came too close to how life can feel in 21st century America when it's at its worst. When you give up and are rich enough not to have any responsibilities, and you care but not really.