the lost and spellbound

he comes unafraid

dyslexic. after softly stabbing
wood all day with a 

blade

comes to me humming 

unafraid. like a bird to the feeder

plants hanging around 

awhile

my fallen 

smile

childish he dips into me 
spellbound 

like a man he

gets his fill and

gone

world without dust

the past all shredded the 

wheat in the bowl we

soak it in milk and blast off here and now

in god we trust a world

without dust 

#katyamills

1995 self portrait

i was nothing special i

stood shy of six feet i felt 

incomplete i bothered myself 

with misgivings

#katyamills

solstice

what fragment of light we

found in the pitch heart of darkness

was greater than noon on the 

solstice day 

#katyamills

year of luxury

sedated on chocolate and pills

a soft butt of jokes dead on

arrival dropped out of survival 

mode. life was luxury status 

year 2049. a soup of liquid liver soak stations 

phones mobilized to do the chores 

sedentary. lesser and lesser 

motion. multimedia saturated

higher designed production

the word on the street a limited 

edition collector soundbyte 

personalities undefined

consciousness nonextant

relegated to epilogue status 

one-liners and tweets regurgitated 

4 swallows

 

#katyamills

2006

i had to desert my friends 

an epic perfectionist i

could not stand to be the one

they got to know i was changing so 

i left and i howled

when they were

gone

#katyamills

golden

he had her in his sights

up on the truss of the tower

bridge she wore the golden

threads the sun could not

contend under a spotless sky

off the paint the winter

morning birds watching he 

posed and shot her

#katyamills

855

the head told you 

you were crazy the heart 

called it out on a lie born 

to live not born to die

#katyamills 

8mm

the heart finally spoke out like cinema
ina condemned theatre
tape rolling through a bell howell
projector dug from an archive. the heart
finally spoke out
the light cast upon the wall
bringing the past to life for
the heart never dies

#katyamills

the atomically compromised

thought you controlled the world your

media constructed myth 

up downloading torrents of permanent denial 

retweeting your favorite tweets glued to the young 

the restless dreaming of another piece of ass wading 

thru your broccoli florets stuck on stupid atomically
compromised goodbye  

#katyamills

in America

nobody thinks alike nobody 

feels the same all 

the time. this is diversity

not subversion

we have shared history 

not carbon copy

if you wanna force someone

to think like you

this country is not 

your home

#katyamills

unified by division

topping charts to Siberia
they cast across Europe the States
legs down south by jeep by boat by
on foot on mood stabilizers on
chromebooks over streams and bit torrents
with under age girls
like some strange new religion unified
by division

#katyamills

the blinking ghosts

we float above stones 

ready to be polished

in then out of view

now we are colorful neither shiny 

absent not faded

not simply a statistic

dreaming to be someone we are

more realistic

#katyamills

city kids

an inside job turned out
a city kid gripped 
with doubt. the infinite details
the mind runs through

some barren fields
smokers heavy in their chains
anti-drug campaigns

DONT WALK        -      run!

she took your hand

in the street you 

knew you were 

loved

#katyamills

daybreak again

some spirit set off the motion 

sensitive lights triggered a memory 

the world had forgotten and you 

never would. they wanted you tough

growing up. had you up early

dressed and out before daybreak 

missteps and tears rarely forgiven 

they had been beaten 

out of them before

you

#katyamills

twenty thirteen

when fentanyl hit the spleen
overdose became mainstream you lost 

friends and legends and the sun still rises

the light wakes you under 

your angel hair cabbage you formulate 

a mission you play with memory you

love and live on

and on

and on

and on

#katyamills