Thursday, 21 October 2021


it's never been how
we look that concerns me so much
as can we survive?
but i understand i
light another candle in the
best light i remember you i
will always do what i can
to see you there


Wednesday, 20 October 2021


no time to daydream

like usual when you edged 

into my office

out of sorts and declared 

the strangest thing

it was like someone was 

there... my blood raced 

to believe

after her death 

our dearest comrade

her spirit! 


Tuesday, 19 October 2021


if we collide

in time and space

i hope it's the best collision

you ever had


Monday, 18 October 2021


five years old i was probably brilliant

by the time i was 25 i didn't know shit 

so i ditched the ocean and naturally threw myself to the wolves

a junky @ 28 i switched coasts

on a handout from my brother we 

both knew i wasn't gonna make it

if i kept on that way  #katyamills

Sunday, 17 October 2021

notes from a wip

with hope

anytime i take a peek 

believin i've made it 

like opening the door

to the dryer machine

stuff spills out

on the floor and i know

i'm not done i 

will never be



Saturday, 16 October 2021

kick no. four thousand and one

she would do anything

to see him smile

even if life demanded 

a kick in the 

teeth  #katyamills

Friday, 15 October 2021

dark.rooms and light

they worked with chemicals 

and film 

ina darkroom they

swallowed several shots 

before work to calm


the extrication of light

from darkness... 


some cannot understand 

what it takes


Thursday, 14 October 2021

turn on

when all's quiet 

in my home 

the great amplitude 

of raw energy

like a switch

turns me



Wednesday, 13 October 2021

all you got

they beat the mean streets 

and hard luck faces 

by a big heart a 

penchant for laughter a 

stomach for failure 

ana means for makin 

easy cash and friends

ina forsaken land 


Tuesday, 12 October 2021

katya to stardusk

dear Stardusk,

these jobs on the old earth

(aft of second sun) they really 

suck your soul thanks 4 

the AI flowers what a surprise

i hope you felt the emoticons

i charged  

orbiting you always 


Monday, 11 October 2021

beholden to the wind

you slammed my bedroom door 

all throughout the night

howled into my ears forced me 

out of bed you blew away 

my style. beholden to the wind 

i am. when they see me 

all shall run  #katyamills

Sunday, 10 October 2021


in the reprieve of summer
we gathered like birds in the park
for a cause

i donated books to the library
a man with manufactured legs
walked his dog

the trees dying of thirst

in this land
we cannot live without
our causes
a great many flock behind 
the ones who stand
in front


Saturday, 9 October 2021


i lost my voice
miles from shore i
had no choice

the old rage and confusion 
the sadness yes i took the bait
jitterbugs 9 hooks
tore my belly up

i ran the line out to 
its end i clean broke that red devil
flash! in the air

you ain't never gonna
catch me 


Friday, 8 October 2021

hungry tummy

we were kids we 

could not see behind our

backs. you headed 4 the duck pond

brought back dinner 

4 the hungry 



Thursday, 7 October 2021


seaworthy to be
we wore layers upon layers
thick wool caps to be 
landworthy laced our boots tight
to be worthy to be 
we wore our hearts out 
unfurled them off a post
gave them to all 
the elements 
our adversaries 
did not stand 
a chance


Wednesday, 6 October 2021

i died 4 music

cuttin and pinning wires
while you carve squares 
into the cabinet

the blade breaks clean
under your power
my lips in stereo thanking you

a star thrown
strikes me in the

i died
4 the love of


nail polish

my nails grow so fast

they will push you out of bed

they said. you won't even recognize me 

this november unless you feel



Monday, 4 October 2021

Hollywood Hills

two lane highway
snake in the forest
take us to the sea

take us to Hollywood
to family with blessings
take us 2 the top of the world
to share a smoke
against sorrows

memories of screenplays
of travels
Egyptian swindlers and
the red-haired boy
the love of winsome
LA sunsets


Sunday, 3 October 2021

various shades of green

5 days i polished the temple
with soap water a bristle brush on hands and knees bucket and rag liquefying greens ina blender i could go on like this forever without meat fish dairy sugar bread. painting the walls various shades of green dear god not without coffee


Saturday, 2 October 2021

San Luis Obispo

SLO @ dusk
empathy yawns
into the void 
welcome to seasoned vindaloo 
with lamb
apparitions of Zebras
trotted out on our fields
of vision
castle in the clouds
San Simeon
the crimson the society
cool nights and clover
surveying pumpkin farms


Friday, 1 October 2021

channel islands

accompanied by gulls
by Santa Barbaras willet 
long-billed fletcher
elegant terns and reddish egret we
shared coffee and song stared
into the morning light  


Thursday, 30 September 2021

the last wave

down a narrow sandy path checkered with manzanita
to Point Rincon in this sleepy surf town
a memorial of painted rocks for a man who gave his wife
the child she always wanted before drowning
on the last wave. three days we stayed in Carp
churning avocados into guacamole. we are lucky 
llamas truly blessed hoping to meet a descendant of
the Chumash   #katyamills

Wednesday, 29 September 2021

Big Sur beats

highway 1
eleven hundred miles 
of coast with you 
los gatos at home
weaving through 
the mountains
radio and gas stations 
the canyons
salt in our nostrils
kelp tossed like an aside
to the beaches
water pounding sense into 
these rocks 

reach out 
over the cliffs to 


Tuesday, 28 September 2021


was gonna cross myself

take something wasn't mine

had the opportunity and 

let it be. before i awoke found

myself reading what i wrote on a stage

touching into the under

blue arm tattoo

dear anarchist dream self 

thank you for coming in 

line after 48 years all 



Monday, 27 September 2021

enter the ocean

i cannot believe i am
flawless if you told me a million times

the salty breath
crashing into shore 
repeats this notion in my dumb

if you dare not enter the ocean 
headlong you will not drown

neither will you be 


Sunday, 26 September 2021

small by the sea

the ocean swallowed the red sun
whole. you and me tucked behind a blanket
this sandy realm gone twilight i feel 
so small by the sea and it's good
why had we not gone swimming? 
had i forgot... in the body
the memory pulled me up
with a start. the mind 
cannot fathom the sinister   


Saturday, 25 September 2021

con respeto

you came from Mexico to work 
you say to make money painting
houses seven days a week no days off
ever? this is why you came
you say. i offer you a doctor pepper
and ask you  - con respeto -
the fumes! have they
gone to your head?

Friday, 24 September 2021

they want you they want you to be someone you not they fantasize no intention on realities you fix them breakfast stare into they soul streamin vids fightin jetstream wide open like the canyons the world is hard and wants you too and took you we have lost


Thursday, 23 September 2021

run on empathy

drained they was

runnin on empathy alone

clothes tattered

eyes red thoughts 

burned black elbows

an knees nicked 

tummy grumbles throat

gurgles breath wheeze

please don't leave 

me we got all 

night don't we?


Wednesday, 22 September 2021


intervals together we

shared the unforgettable 

brevity the building feverish 

the long hours waitin...

years later got our wish

all our days twenty

four seven together we 

could have killed each

other and then...

we did  #katyamills

Tuesday, 21 September 2021

the 5th try

a hawk fought 4 balance 

over the banks of the river

5 times she spoke 

4 times he did not listen

it was bound 2 be a great 

fall     #katyamills

solution like the ocean

the days could be dizzying

we all got mixed up

it matters

how you put your

self together how fantastic 

to solve oneself 

like so   #katyamills

Sunday, 19 September 2021

say if

if you say if 

i was wrong in your

letter of apology

you ain't



Saturday, 18 September 2021

b gen

i gen and then evolved to be gen

life was saturated online

receptive fandoms and such

offline the marble got smaller

and rolled and could only be seen

from a great distance 



Friday, 17 September 2021


unable to think unable 

to speak. mashed and bounced

precisely half ways across the earth

absorbed by some gargantuan feeling

you wrote poems unlike mine 

except they was true. watch 

over me and i over you


Thursday, 16 September 2021





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Tuesday, 14 September 2021


question everything

and the thoughts running 

wild across the

synapse  #katyamills

Monday, 13 September 2021

made up

laced up our finest boots

eyelashes bold 

made up real fierce we

rolled out with our knapsacks

to the independent 



Sunday, 12 September 2021

blow the disparate minds

takes silence   





on all the tragedy

you inflicted and when the time comes 

destroy the very home obliterate the ego 

rebuild it from scratch

and blow the 




push flowers

they was pushin daisies  

all around us

swimmin in shark waters

we was. twenty twenty

pandemic and fentanyl i 

got a fightin chance

shoulda pushed flowers 20 years back 

my gratitude runs deep. every blade 

a forest every drop a 

lake every second 

a lifetime


Friday, 10 September 2021

unlikely places

they found intimacy 

in fighting in yelling being

pinned against a wall

deep beneath the ice they 

was yearning  


Thursday, 9 September 2021

venmo fugitives

here was okay 

but nothin like nowhere

rummaging through shops 

4 clothes @ war with capitalism

venmo fugitives

we tore through the firewalls

they constructed

bleedin us for pennies

on the other side



Wednesday, 8 September 2021


you will not need a platform
a purpose a cell phone you
do not need money or friends 
or water or food you just 
need to pray around
the clock give thanks
and speak truth 
they say  #katyamills

Tuesday, 7 September 2021

i was yours
the cars spinning down the streets
collision with the air 
i was yours and
i was yours until 
being a hood ornament 
became a fuckin
drag   #katyamills

Monday, 6 September 2021

lesser brighter days

the fall after the summer

not unlike immolation 4 the cause

was marked by fiery reds

yellow and orange in

the ones who survived


Sunday, 5 September 2021

newlyweds bumper crop

the boy recycled the cans tied 2 the newlyweds 

bumper. used the proceeds 

toward baseball cards climbed

the aqueduct chewing bubble gum 

under a honey moon


C notes

i would not be

some rich emmm F

flat posin with a C note

you could 

not pay me 

enough  #katyamills

Friday, 3 September 2021

any verse

out on the stones

a friday eve with any verse

tremulous voice

tied back sleeves lips 

pursed. all the world let

down her locks 

in the arms of her bonny



Thursday, 2 September 2021


hailed by two string guitars 

evocative. we touched our scars we 

looked to the stars what 

when you hit shore? we prayed

we prayed 

into the grid you tore and 

the children swore god

damn they 

swore   #katyamills  

Wednesday, 1 September 2021


they was wanted 

on any road traveled

east and south and west and north

an unsparing desire 

in some bar 

on any street corner

sleeves rolled up

for a fix


Tuesday, 31 August 2021


the winds howled all night

encircling us

candles gave the shadows 

life. we fed her some earth 4 foundation

power lines for voltage 2 highlight the eye

we made up

the queen of all tropical

storms  #katyamills

Monday, 30 August 2021

the great american novel complex

by the time they 

got everything just so

to create 

the paid out pension the

cabin in the mountains

all the friends alerted to they

great american novel

it was too late way too

late  #katyamills

Sunday, 29 August 2021


in the spirit of comradery

may our fists forever

pound   #katyamills

Saturday, 28 August 2021

pink in the paws

summer turned to fall 

barefoot at the gas station

pink in the paw

taking fast food orders

with conjured elation

they found a twenty dollar bill 

in the road engine stalling 

spilled coffee all over the self 

good heavens so 

funny it sad so sad

it funny   #katyamills

Friday, 27 August 2021

case #xxo

the mockups kept you 

sharp what with the coming of the trial

you were so much more 

than a case so much more than just

a file  #katyamills

Thursday, 26 August 2021

distant relatives

got by on celebrity bios

in lieu of they own kin they 

kicked off a world tour in lieu of pain

and suffering they called it 

distant relatives 


Wednesday, 25 August 2021

story 23

in the real world

no one cares about your dreams 

but you 


Tuesday, 24 August 2021

go to bed tired

the hardest days are the best days

give of yourself even more than

you knew you had

to give   #katyamills

Monday, 23 August 2021

some say reckless

leaning into the winds 

they faced the storm with

some say reckless some say 

selfless abandon

by the gods 

they were allotted

the power to save


Sunday, 22 August 2021

dream of dreams

there was a dream made of an element not yet on the table filling all the gaps in our memory all the holes in our souls with a warmth akin to sunshine. the visionaries had no words no words to see it settled the collective insecure bittersweet heart  #katyamills

Saturday, 21 August 2021


the will of the people cannot always 

prevail. we see this in Hong Kong even in the States 

where capitalism fights democracy

to a draw