nothing forced we
plot course let it take us
dawn in america. we were wrong we got right
my apartment an organic
living mess like the desk of a social worker on wednesday i
tried to take flight off the screen off the paper
now i'm grounded. stay still. chill
the time we got to spendin
you were the one. i couldn't care what they saw
the faded flags fly eyes
desert dry i could cry coffee
for all the sleep we lost
the sunrise. the 8th wonder
of the world
#katyamills
Monday 29 June 2020
life before cars
i remember you years back. funny and loud
silence didn’t stand a chance
they expanded the freeway
now i cannot hear the birds
like they planned it
ten lanes now
the whole family out
bowling. an icy can of orange and two
tone shoes. big shiny ball ona slow roll
i got you in my head again. when you left
it was life before cars
#katyamills
Sunday 28 June 2020
thank these gods
these notifications surround us from
all sides chirping like new species of bird
fuk these ads between songs they
killin us. okay i
thank these gods for you sweet
heart keep your dreams alive on
sunday. covid 19 proliferates culture
gets canceled ok good or bad
we are young. a little hot
sometimes thats all
#katyamills
all sides chirping like new species of bird
fuk these ads between songs they
killin us. okay i
thank these gods for you sweet
heart keep your dreams alive on
sunday. covid 19 proliferates culture
gets canceled ok good or bad
we are young. a little hot
sometimes thats all
#katyamills
these dreams
feeling lost they
danced back into one
of a thousand worlds they
called home
lightning struck
through a dark web
portal
they drank champagne
with a twist on a staple of twitter
retweetables
now was time
to search themselves then
produce these
dreams
#katyamills
danced back into one
of a thousand worlds they
called home
lightning struck
through a dark web
portal
they drank champagne
with a twist on a staple of twitter
retweetables
now was time
to search themselves then
produce these
dreams
#katyamills
Friday 26 June 2020
snapshot 25
the sky is asking the
water running i
discard my early morning jeans
step into the
peach skin of apartments
the weave of baskets the
morning sun the
life of the
day
#katyamills
water running i
discard my early morning jeans
step into the
peach skin of apartments
the weave of baskets the
morning sun the
life of the
day
#katyamills
Thursday 25 June 2020
june 25
capture my imagination
provoke it. feed it beans and
rice and release it into
what's left of
the wild
#katyamills
provoke it. feed it beans and
rice and release it into
what's left of
the wild
#katyamills
Wednesday 24 June 2020
book giveaway
Goodreads Book Giveaway
Trouble '99
by Katya Mills
Giveaway ends June 28, 2020.
See the giveaway details
at Goodreads.
Enter Giveaway
Tuesday 23 June 2020
im.print
shooting the mouth off
another infraction rolled
up tight end over
there
by the koi pond in some
anaerobic muck the
beta swallows the
alpha. all is well
again
#katyamills
up tight end over
end i gotta stop
anywhere
to think
sometimes by light or water
anywhere
to think
sometimes by light or water
beneath the wind whipped
trees the city speeds the violent
dust up of paper flying about
trees the city speeds the violent
dust up of paper flying about
there
by the koi pond in some
anaerobic muck the
beta swallows the
alpha. all is well
again
#katyamills
Monday 22 June 2020
white
i saw the law i
went outside. they searched me
they searched my car they
fined me cuffed me
locked me behind bars they
assaulted me made me feel stupid
ashamed hopeless and lost
consider me lucky they
never took my life
#katyamills
went outside. they searched me
they searched my car they
fined me cuffed me
locked me behind bars they
assaulted me made me feel stupid
ashamed hopeless and lost
consider me lucky they
never took my life
#katyamills
Sunday 21 June 2020
1985
a skinhead ina truck ahead of me flying
beyond the limits drifted left hit the median
at thirty degrees bounced off
fender crumpled
brakes burning i thought it was over
for all of us. dirt from the shoulder rising
to meet the windshields
giving us flak
then
like nothin happened
we picked up speed and drove on
heartbeat tapering down
the trajectory of my life is not dissimilar
almost totaled
like nothing happened i go on
body demands coffee day and night
beyond the limits drifted left hit the median
at thirty degrees bounced off
fender crumpled
brakes burning i thought it was over
for all of us. dirt from the shoulder rising
to meet the windshields
giving us flak
then
like nothin happened
we picked up speed and drove on
heartbeat tapering down
the trajectory of my life is not dissimilar
almost totaled
like nothing happened i go on
body demands coffee day and night
approaching fifty like i'm
twenty-five. takin flak. sense of purpose
no different than it was
back in ‘85
twenty-five. takin flak. sense of purpose
no different than it was
back in ‘85
#katyamills
june 21
slept for ten hours and would have
more but for hydraulics screaming
under weight of recycling beyond
the back door. dissociated after my sugar crash i
zoned out on credit karma
to witness the inevitable separation
of self from hard-earned
cash
#katyamills
more but for hydraulics screaming
under weight of recycling beyond
the back door. dissociated after my sugar crash i
zoned out on credit karma
to witness the inevitable separation
of self from hard-earned
cash
#katyamills
Friday 19 June 2020
snapshot 26
life is always
changing hard to
define
temperature climbing
freestyle rhyming
cultures dubbed like sound
define
temperature climbing
freestyle rhyming
cultures dubbed like sound
no longer willing
to be reduced
to a wheeze
statues standing in
stone motion cold
freeze
getting up i get
down to strike keys
dissing the
eeze
to be reduced
to a wheeze
statues standing in
stone motion cold
freeze
getting up i get
down to strike keys
dissing the
eeze
Thursday 18 June 2020
2012
leading a protest against
emptiness i was
in need of SSRIs
emptiness i was
in need of SSRIs
held up by hairspray
insides like jello
lookin sorry
played out
lookin sorry
played out
feelin neglected
relationships faded i
could not synch the
clocks i was checking
all the locks
i found my
own way out by god
relationships faded i
could not synch the
clocks i was checking
all the locks
i found my
own way out by god
that's life
#katyamills
remix 2012
remix 2012
un.locked
we were group thinking
rising in numbers
rising in numbers
exponential on the
streets
then i saw you
detached. by the stairs. head
down shoe laces free
style blowing out
in some other
world
you lifted your eyes you
searched you extracted my heart
by a keyword
i would give up my cause
for you. unlock me
from the masses! the
pain is almost
gone
streets
then i saw you
detached. by the stairs. head
down shoe laces free
style blowing out
in some other
world
you lifted your eyes you
searched you extracted my heart
by a keyword
i would give up my cause
for you. unlock me
from the masses! the
pain is almost
gone
#katyamills
Tuesday 16 June 2020
knock down drag
you were workin several shifts
holding it down. i was lifted hopin
this could hold up. you were
switchin gears then i tried
you and we had a knock down
drag out. the dogs left howling
in the yard. a playful sun hid
behind a cloud. then set the
sky on fire. i. you.
we all come down
#katyamills
holding it down. i was lifted hopin
this could hold up. you were
switchin gears then i tried
you and we had a knock down
drag out. the dogs left howling
in the yard. a playful sun hid
behind a cloud. then set the
sky on fire. i. you.
we all come down
#katyamills
Monday 15 June 2020
emo.z
yesterday i got lost
on gen z emo
rap and cried about the lean
the purple the blue
they turned
before their time
came due
thank god
the music lives
on
on gen z emo
rap and cried about the lean
the purple the blue
they turned
before their time
came due
thank god
the music lives
on
Sunday 14 June 2020
twenty.twenty
life is sharp and ready
to cut
cat on my chest
flexes
pushing retracting
claws
life is soft and
dreamy ona
sunday morning
the newsprint wants
to murder
you
still
so much to do
not enough time
the screens blinding
i would be lying if
i said i was
fine
#katyamills
to cut
cat on my chest
flexes
pushing retracting
claws
life is soft and
dreamy ona
sunday morning
the newsprint wants
to murder
you
still
so much to do
not enough time
the screens blinding
i would be lying if
i said i was
fine
#katyamills
Saturday 13 June 2020
dream sequence
i am walking a bridge made of guitar
strings made of guts. over a gorge.
back in my hotel room there are lamps
in the bathtub. the place is ransacked and
i think it was me. sleep
i need sleep. no blankets no sheets just a
mattress on the ground. blood rushes
from a slit down my forearm. i am weak
no words to speak no tears upon my
cheek. nobody around. i pick up the old
phone wrap the cord around my arm
restless to remember your number. i call you.
the tone of each ring holds a promise.
#katyamills
strings made of guts. over a gorge.
back in my hotel room there are lamps
in the bathtub. the place is ransacked and
i think it was me. sleep
i need sleep. no blankets no sheets just a
mattress on the ground. blood rushes
from a slit down my forearm. i am weak
no words to speak no tears upon my
cheek. nobody around. i pick up the old
phone wrap the cord around my arm
restless to remember your number. i call you.
the tone of each ring holds a promise.
#katyamills
Friday 12 June 2020
honestly i
so i lost it
what can i say
knuckles bleeding
today
they ran up on me
the thoughts rushing
my mind i had to ice a mf
hit me from
behind
picked some flowers
for my momma on
my way home
depleted of color
looking for a sign
fixed on my cell
i cannot see
whats happening
to me
blue bells for
momma a monster
in my heart
don't wanna wash
this blood away
honestly
i lost it what
can i say
#katyamills
what can i say
knuckles bleeding
today
they ran up on me
the thoughts rushing
my mind i had to ice a mf
hit me from
behind
picked some flowers
for my momma on
my way home
depleted of color
looking for a sign
fixed on my cell
i cannot see
whats happening
to me
blue bells for
momma a monster
in my heart
don't wanna wash
this blood away
honestly
i lost it what
can i say
#katyamills
Thursday 11 June 2020
what was
the future arrived
yesterday
maybe a loved one
or two
you and me because
we knew
what was
#katyamills
yesterday
maybe a loved one
or two
you and me because
we knew
what was
#katyamills
Wednesday 10 June 2020
june 10
i see you on video you look so good
all airbrushed like that lemme give you
a virtual hug or a heart. will i see you
in real life and when? i filtered the audio so your
voice is crystal clear. calling from a stitch
in a switch. damn. the game
finally swallowed us.
#katyamills
all airbrushed like that lemme give you
a virtual hug or a heart. will i see you
in real life and when? i filtered the audio so your
voice is crystal clear. calling from a stitch
in a switch. damn. the game
finally swallowed us.
#katyamills
Tuesday 9 June 2020
wheels
sparrows dip
wings and turn about
the gold fields
tent city at north
gate and sixteenth god
am i lucky
ridin wheels
over the american
river
exchangin words
at the fountain
gettin wet
thank you
spinnin hot
spokes shinin
in the sunlight
close to my
heart
wings and turn about
the gold fields
tent city at north
gate and sixteenth god
am i lucky
ridin wheels
over the american
river
exchangin words
at the fountain
gettin wet
thank you
spinnin hot
spokes shinin
in the sunlight
close to my
heart
Monday 8 June 2020
Sunday 7 June 2020
world without words
you will never add up
admonished the numbers
the letters formed into soft
words oh. ok. sorry and if you
say so
you must be calculating
to help us. precise.
do we have to spell
it out?
the letters went silent. they drafted
a non compete clause but the
numbers they just multiplied out
toward infinity
the letters they felt
useless. abandoned
then a question arose
how will we communicate
without us?
the numbers stopped
at a loss for
words
admonished the numbers
the letters formed into soft
words oh. ok. sorry and if you
say so
you must be calculating
to help us. precise.
do we have to spell
it out?
the letters went silent. they drafted
a non compete clause but the
numbers they just multiplied out
toward infinity
the letters they felt
useless. abandoned
then a question arose
how will we communicate
without us?
the numbers stopped
at a loss for
words
Saturday 6 June 2020
#hk
hong kong. never too far
from my thoughts
all the action in my country
where i am caught. and you
my sister. so far, far away i write this letter
if only to say
we love you
we will not let them bring you down
may we laugh and hold hands may we
fight this together
always be free in our
hearts
from my thoughts
all the action in my country
where i am caught. and you
my sister. so far, far away i write this letter
if only to say
we love you
we will not let them bring you down
may we laugh and hold hands may we
fight this together
always be free in our
hearts
Friday 5 June 2020
out.let
the water comes to a boil
i measure out some grains
juan valdez to wake me up
coffee black on a full moon
friday. everyone lookin 4 an outlet
i got mine behind these
keys
#katyamills
i measure out some grains
juan valdez to wake me up
coffee black on a full moon
friday. everyone lookin 4 an outlet
i got mine behind these
keys
#katyamills
Thursday 4 June 2020
june 3
june. thunderstorms broken sleep
boarded up businesses and the national
guard scattered like buckshot all across town
the mindless dumb they thumbing their nose
pulling on straps full face smiling don't
care. under the window some
junky gone pale fishin for a vein
eyes fall back sunk in that old melody
shook up waiting for
the beat
#katyamills
boarded up businesses and the national
guard scattered like buckshot all across town
the mindless dumb they thumbing their nose
pulling on straps full face smiling don't
care. under the window some
junky gone pale fishin for a vein
eyes fall back sunk in that old melody
shook up waiting for
the beat
#katyamills
cold city
sun touches the earth
the line becomes more
and more defined
a firmness in your belly
metallic taste on your tongue
little moons
running wide orbits
circling you
the sun cool the ice
burning hot
the kids
sweeping up
after you
not everyone's gonna be
what the world wants
you to be
wiping the palms
off the glass you
wait for night
to forget
#katyamills
the line becomes more
and more defined
a firmness in your belly
metallic taste on your tongue
little moons
running wide orbits
circling you
the sun cool the ice
burning hot
the kids
sweeping up
after you
not everyone's gonna be
what the world wants
you to be
wiping the palms
off the glass you
wait for night
to forget
#katyamills
Tuesday 2 June 2020
livestream
we livestream through the
heat waves never touching we
walk the blocks like bandits
wearing masks wondering
what happened to the world we
once knew
#katyamills
Monday 1 June 2020
hope ina hopeless time
back to the liquor store
for another scratcher you
poured a cup of coffee at the gas
station walked out
of town on the train
tracks you recited in your head
the smile the cashier gave you
the balanced smile
all the hope you
ever had ina hopeless
time
#katyamills
for another scratcher you
poured a cup of coffee at the gas
station walked out
of town on the train
tracks you recited in your head
the smile the cashier gave you
the balanced smile
all the hope you
ever had ina hopeless
time
#katyamills
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