step.pes

 our best moments i

 wanted more

you moved to control 

alt delete 

on the steppes we

find ourselves 

refreshed

may i sit beside you

in the rain?

#katyamills

EMF

my DNA got to shifting 

crackling beneath the power lines

pupils turned to bolts

of high voltage lightning

#katyamills

autumn like a junky

autumn

once the sweetest season 

now full of fire and smoke

like a junky once was

the sweetest boy 

now full of piss

and vinegar

#katyamills

pri.mary

interior lands lock on a promise 
hollow. blue and red days
sun struck turn orange

a madman a conspiracy they

conflagrate they suck all the oxygen

a boy in class raises his head to ask

without green how will we get
the others? silence answered

the sound of colors 

#katyamills

by.line

 i have seen sunrises i live by the llllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll light

#katyamills

brotherhood

Roll the tape! Brotherhood of

backflip off diving board half

toed wild temperate like

pool nerves snapped

towels

pandemic looked pale

in comparison

#katyamills

i saw i was

i saw i could not see you i 

was the wishing i could explain i 

was the urge to be right i saw 

the key. i was the let down in your eyes 

i saw the first day of fall

#katyamills

america

punishing

endearing

hopelessly majestic

america

replete with 

contradictions

i love

you

#katyamills

fall.20

fall like a charred

 anthem our throats

coated with smoke

Sacramento

a city on all sides

surrounded by fire

from a distance

the prayer

subsequently

the sea

#katyamills

os.mosis

they had seeds for eyeballs the

oval packed about with soil

melancholy was their vital

irrigation the tears

in reverse 

#katyamills

luck.y

i'm a lucky one found

work that makes me think

and feel. congruent with my 

mission on this fucked up 

planet earth

#katyamills

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latchkey kid and #indieauthor. nonbinary (she/they). genX. as the sun rises i morph into a #psychotherapist. i hold out hope for anyone and u

latest book review

 Trouble '99

by 

Katya Mills (Goodreads Author)

Sarah Carney's review

Sep 17, 2020

liked it

bookshelves: giveaways, my-kindle-list

I really liked the story and the message of this novella. I don’t think I’ve read a stream of consciousness styled book in a long time and parts were hard for me to get into.

It surrounds four 20-somethings in the Chicago area in 1999. The point of view is through the eyes of Kat and her experiences.

Overall I liked it, but probably not loved it. I would read more from this author, especially if there was a sequel to find out what happened in Kat’s life after 1999. :)

I won this book from a Goodreads giveaway, but these are my true opinions. Thank you for the chance at reading this book.

ponopticon

she took a train and they could see her

tear two sugars for her coffee

while the china rattled 

she contemplated her navel 

should i tell them what's

on my mind? she 

thought she thought

she thought

#katyamills

lip.stick

the shade of lipstick

made from poison 

berry matches your eyes

fierce yet optimistic

#katyamills

thought.stop

thought.stop

my thoughts racing

kept me up at night

chasing. voices whispering i

tried to be polite but they

would not heed i

shouted tore at my hair

until my head bleed. finally

i got busy with chores and like

a plant without water they

could not live no

more

 

dead.name

i buried you under a thousand pounds

social anxiety mixed with

tears medication fears and 

dysphoria. what a mercy

killing

#katyamills

death by tablet

robotic dogs and drones

cardboard cutouts at baseball games

peanuts and popcorn by microwave

virtual tours and perpetual world

wars. super storms and lightning

complex. next is death by tablet. 

oh! what a time to fall

in love 

#katyamills

cha.os

the calm comes 

from within

#katyamills

pre.vail

may the spirit prevail through 

heat smoke and virus 

fire and political storm in twenty

twenty. i push and make demands

of this lethargic clumsy body 

just the same 

#katyamills

harvey: god of the sea

we took some shots you 

caught me in transition on 

a silver disc. years later we 

met for dinner. i was lost

a cat back up hurt and poor 

you gave a royal fanfare i 

found out you're gone by 

internet. i will never forget you

my god of the sea and

to the sea you return

#katyamills

cavity.8

i got 8 cavities i

filled one with coffee

two with hopeful thoughts. one

with words the participles

dangling off a crown.

i got 8 cavities

the one closest to the root i

filled with feeling

stacked another high

with books to the ceiling

i got 8 cavities i

hold out on any dentist

keep my goldfish ina shallow

pool of flouridated

water

the very last?

for to keep

the ones who have no

home



#katyamills

a.way

they killed me with kindness they

sure got a way with 

murder

#katyamills

 

bloody right

 

she flossed her teeth six times 

the day before the dentist

to save herself a guilt trip

you can wake up feeling fat ugly stupid

and be wrong

#katyamills

pyro.cumulo.nimbus

o heavy cloud made of timber 

nuclear bloom over our 

reckless

global

nebulous 

careless affairs

breaking the 

sky 

the fire 

in my belly 

will not be subsumed

 

i offer these 

ashes

#katyamills

back.track

the AQI was awfully high 

banana slugs had a cough i 

called my best in conditioned air

to volunteer the feeling then dug out

a break controlled a burn. we 

lend voices to the bodies in

the pitch

#katyamills

bluelight 4

our expressions masked. our eyes

reflections of blue light. our friendships 

our lessons our lives within zoom

#katyamills

trans.anima.tronics

barely visible behind

spring locks they 

could not imagine 

any future 

so they sought refuge 

in the past. years  

in their head

until they found the key

to unlocking

a life

#katyamills

19.85

rising in elevation 

through pine forest

deep into fall and a brushing

of snow

few words between us we 

cut up some wood

built a fire 

the shadows jumping

the walls give the room life 

tell me a story i 

don't care if it's true we

make it all up 

as we go

#katyamills

x differential

though miles and miles away we 

wrote the same  sentences typed the same

words struck the same tone hit the same

key 

what set us apart

was my letter x

to your letter

z

#katyamills