shadow of exxxpectations

when we were little ones we lived in long shadows of expectations. unless you wanted what they wanted this made for some suffering. it was good to believe in yourself. how can anyone demand you refuse your heart’s calling? challenge them. show them how much it means to you.

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tbh #7

to be honest this

can happen to anyone the loss 

of direction sometimes you

gotta pray for guidance

believe in yourself!

there's nothing you cannot 

overcome

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the open sea

Underneath the surface all is well. Don't let life get you down. Don't listen to all those people who are waiting to be discredited before they will finally open their eyes. Beneath the surface all is well. The waves are only growing larger and more threatening where the sea meets the sky. You may be up there in your sailboat trying to stay alive. All the worries and troubles of your life making you feel them so. All the people demanding you understand. Underneath it all, nothing has ever changed. All was always well deep in your heart and you know you can go there. Have faith over fear. Go there now and be the calm that always was, and let them believe in you like you believe in your god and yourself.

Journal # fantastic waste of time

I believe we have the innate capacity to identify with one another, even over fantastic distances, I believe in you just as I believe in myself in that wherever you hang your lantern, you may shed light upon for us all! and nothing need be a fantastic waste of time, no, for what anyone designates a waste of time may be so for them, not me or you; and furthermore I say it is decidedly unreasonable for anyone to impose upon anyone else the proper usage of time, for to do so is not fair employment, and would be more aptly named 'slavery' unless they are paying you for your time.

 Ninety-nine of a hundred people would argue that my sitting here in the middle of the night, writing, is a waste of time, and I may be the only one who disagrees, vehemently! But you see this is all it ever takes, and this is one of the secrets to life, most of which are hidden in plain view. If you are to be anything you wanna be or become, go hang your lantern where you must, even in the darkest worlds no one else has cared to uncover, and keep your faith about you: be the fantastic waste of time everyone says you are! and be it defiantly! be it aggressively! be it nonsensically! rebelliously! be it whole-heartedly! be it consistently! and definitively!

Yes, be it from the first cup of coffee at the beginning of your day, to the bitter end. Be it on the ups, and be it on the downs. Be it before and after anyone's party. Be it in a the crowded square, and all alone in your own home. And never believe them, shut your ears and do not listen for they know not what they say.