skatin the i.ball

in a crowd i was
a thief my eyes shifty my
shadow darted into grates
hands in pockets pupils
skating the eyeball
in circles. an object of
derision a sinking
suspicion

alone i was birth
and death and
neverending i
drank my coffee
after five hours
sleep

my moment
stirred

i was left
out

i was shy i
longed to
be



Katya Mills
remix'96

love space cadet

we loved to eat we
ate we ate we ate


companionship was immortal life
never gained any
weight
and

 digested the earth
below our feet

and
left us spinning
space
cadets


#katyamills
remix'96

lightning without thunder

through clouds flashes
through eyelids

blanket over tired feet pillow
under head how long is forever? you
let me sleep

the wind
sands
the dunes

washes the truck
dry my eyes on my
plate you let me
eat let me
sleep

time flashes by on our tv
sets. through eyelids through
clouds

lightning
without thunder

it is past our bedtime past
our pastime before
we even know it
and

we even
know it



Katya Mills
remix from '96

shade breathing dust at noon

Pelicans seesaw then dive in a row

stabbing daggers into salt

water in the wind

i am the line not yet drawn

a whole awaiting division

clouds form faces against the sky

watching the sun

swallowed by the sea

i am permanence for that 

which is changing

seagulls flutter and cry

across the new horizon

some light left behind

a burning memory 

i cry in colored sunsets

waiting for coffee

to open my 

eyes

i am a shade breathing

dust at noon

taken and remixed from the black cover 

journal of katya mills '96

i was 23 years old

check

anyone
stuck at home
faced with

stillness
silence
boredom

uninspired
waiting for government
stimulus

generate it
yourself

urban verses

faith in one

another we
take cover

hitting the bricks
early hour of the

day we
trick the tricks
what they gonna

say

no nine to five we
make our own
time i feel so alive
in your arms then
spent

steam rises
through grates in
the streets we rent

hydrants let loose
like my spirit
summer days
catches fire scaling
fences

beneath
your loving gaze


#katyamills
2020

under cover

under cover
of darkness
my lover
of light
made even
a storm front
bright