Monday, 2 January 2012

Gotta start somewhere out of nowhere, like a flash flood of snake venom out of pink heart painted giftwrap, part II

Part I


Gotta-start-somewhere-out-of-nowhere... Part I




Part II
I've gotta start somewhere...she thought,  so why not right here? these the very words unspoken which opened up a reverb-dampening highway from her head to her heart. A long distance, if you're ever fortunate enough to start. And all that doubt (that was the reverb) always amounted to a whole lot of wasted energy down a dead end road, all that doubt which she could never trace back to source but which flattened her; that doubt suddenly ceased to be! All that verysame rushing flow of insecurity! That drainage, that trash which took dance out of step and reason from season into a sudden freeze... all that bullshit? She would have condemned it for sure, would have hung it from the rafters! Then strangled the corpse of it for hours even after. So sick it made her, for so long and weary a time. She would have exposed it to noon sun, unclothed and debunked it! She would have cut it clear through down the flank and leeched it of toxins! Then hunted the toxins down, heated them up in canola oil popping up from iron pan. Then sucked the remaining fumes of the matter, watching the dead thing past death as charred grizzle dripped down from cuts in the platter.


photo/edit by K.
I shoulda and may as well have planted all that bullshit in six feet or more of soil a hella long time ago! she told herself with some admonishment, pressing the spatula hard into the remaining griddle of old hopes long lost. To the sewers down deep would they drain, the pale tasteless no longer discernable former hopes, down deep to stay!  Underground to knock around aimlessly like hammers on iron pipes in sub-basement level areas. All that rattling silenced and out of earshot could no longer make her feel old and unable....cause all that runoff demoralization she made for damn sure got dissipated. Dissssipated. Dissipated! For damn sure! For goddamn certain. Hella gone to dirt and dissipated, forever fucking freeze dried, fucked, fried, fired to damn near charred immolation! When the fuel she used for sublimation settled, she dripped the oil into the basin and watched the water separate and bead. The goosebumps which popped up on her skin as the last of it fell down the drain, took quite awhile to recede. She felt like a sociopath who cuts back life without mercy, a killer who might not hesitate to take equal care of its own corrupt seed.

This was all so dramatic for her,  the process so cathartic. She spared no embellishment or extremity of passion, having lived her recent life flat as busts of heroin chic anorectic models of high fashion. She could no longer trash them. She was as culture-shocked and starved of self-esteem. Her Self-loathing had found her to evolve into someone or something not just alien;  utterly impossible for anyone to digest. For herself to digest. She consumed cigarrettes and alcohol and pharmaceuticals, as a constant diversion. She held herself out of reach on a ten foot pole! Consider a day walking the Mojave desert without water....hardly possible? She was that same day traded in for a night drinking diuretics in a sauna,  followed by a breakfast of dehydrated apples in a bowl of astronaut ice cream. Impossible!

That was then. The carpet she rolled out now, for her new celebrity skin, was Hollywood red. New money red. Blood-squeezed box office red. She needed to be so bold! To quiet the doubt, muffle the reverb, the self-conscious talk so creeping vine diabolical... the carpet was long like a bridal train gone transamerica. Old school in its beauty of carved redwood and exotic red crystal chandeliers. Old school the way she remembered once feeling herself. Vintage her and a good year, she recalled. The rains softened soil for an exquisite sweet crop. Her powers of creation endured well beyond the season, nonstop. Her smile and expressions made her both local yet accessible in a farmer's market-like way then, when she was young....her maidenhood caught the men's imaginations at prices reflecting highest class and quality. Equal to if not exceeding low supply market import levels.


photo by  K.

Fresh and local, in a world-embracing kinda fashion, she again found herself so enticing like that. But this time she herself got turned on. Not to be confused with vanity, she found she appealed as much to herself. Before her love stretched outward but had no real tension. Lost her form and her every careful nurtured dimension. Before long she no longer made impression. But skip all the recollections! She no longer collected. The hobbyist turned devoted to self and self-healing, and her impressions they vaulted straight to the ceiling. Still heavy on the wallet the budget the home economy, yet nothing could hold back her self-confidence... her momentum toward her vision, you see. She went from catatonic and outdated to catapulted via capitulation into a locus well beyond the atmosphere to the stars, self-refurbished and recreated.

Tuesday, 20 December 2011

she awoke (she was awake, when she awoke)

Was a cold bright dry lit kinda day, following the cool quiet night pulse of this organism. The one wiki-christened the earth (r.r.o.o. really really old origins) after a long time coming generic, long enough to set to wretching an entire boardroom of advertising executives inbred of just as old old schools perhaps as the earth herself. Ancient is an understatement! The dinosaurs considered them primitive, and would again consider them the same, when dinosaurs were reinvented and resurfaced back from extinction to be novel pets for crazy humans. Miniatures of course. Most critical language in the owners manual: Don't forget to synch them. Otherwise you risked your warranty getting voided. Say it aint so!

And after all that long infinite-like wait (by capitalist standards), the earth took only a year and a half to lose its title. Or add to it, if you want to try and frame it. Well, for big bucks she went down, mother earth. You heard of mothers selling their children? Well, remain seated! Coming to a theatre near you (near enough as time went on, until no longer near, for near became a less compelling footnote in a less compelling institution called Oxford Twice Abridged And Still Underappreciated For Its Secondary Purpose Defined: as submitted to the jury on that day whenever the hell it was, oldentimes, in wherever criminals commit crimes, England, etc. etc. Curmudgeneration. Bloody jack ripper cobblestone way. The same anyplace, motherland, which could previously have been appreciated for its own local boys plugging in and sending diverse, random, rock waves over the rolling waters, past the Queen Marys, all of them, and rolling into the dirty greenbath suds left by herds of dreamy dirty uncared for immigrants reluctantly capping their names off and releasing entire European heritages to sink crestfallen away into the darks of the new york cities infamous harbor of all types sizes races genders, just come and act like you want it, and work yourselves toward the glamorous lives your now american descendants will realize, having gone west and gone gold and gone Hollywood, once the gold was panned, sent, weighed, and sold. Work yourselves to death trying. In between a rock...and another, much larger rock lined with prairies and pines and primed for corn production.

She knew her own personal history well, she did. Her mom hammered it hard into her soft skull, when her skull could still be called soft. She did not mind. What she did mind was waking in the middle of the night out of a dream turned bad! Lately she found herself so. The connection she had not yet made would come to her soon, at a sitting for chocolate carving (like had been done centuries before) the slow primitive way. Slates of government chocolate lined the long tables where the ladies and gentleman met toward good purpose. Wood carving tools made perfect instruments for this kind of pre-civilized affair.

That connection soon yet to be realized, coincided with that base emotion, fear. Fearful of earth advocates protesting the new earth naming campaign they had tried to keep on the hush-hush! Down low. Well, that was back when it was only a facebook 9.0 virtual advocacy hologram. It all seemed so simple back then, like the Wu-Tang appeal.

She became politically-charged and evil-minded. Funny how it happened on the same day. In background enabled synch. Only way to get there, she and her compatriots of the future discussed, would be to come down upon the faction of low down, slow downs, the eco-postmortem-baby-boomer-babys-grandbabies. They had just broke the ties that bound them (for their own good). Encased in clay core cribs until they reached the federally sanctioned exact age at which safety (and therefore survival and preservation of the species) could be odds-favored (though most certainly not bet on). This was the protocol adhered to by the mid-dom.partners and their Unities (the contemporary name for Unions).

Though gaming got  decarbonized long ago, and the shells of formerly active brains overtaken by eighty inch plus non-flat roundscreens were long since collected and disposed of in community college manualarts reinhabitation bins around the country. Though the word gaming was now globablly synonymous with suicidality clauses. Though the xbox creators were now touted in religious circles as certain devils. An old outdated crummy concept, the devil, yet falling back in fashion only through the door of political desperation and mischief.

Evidenced in that resurrection so glorified in theory, yet soaking to the gills in atleast seven of many more now known deadly sins. Certainly couch-potato combat, aka Droning, when men set themselves to the mercy of their unified walls of technology, where men became unmanned and sent themselves hurtling into inner and outer spaces. The conservatives called it, in their coarse text-to-speech-to-masses translations, finding real estate on the navel. These selfsame conservatives who could have prevented the aforementioned health-hazard recreation, yet instead wound up financing the multi-trillion dollar teabagging party's unscientific experiment turned industry: Rebonding of man and mans pastime by yet unknown onyx infused monourethane derivatives. 

This whole resurgence had been recapitalized and reamortized a thousand replicated times, encrypted in an oversized bitlocker scaled with primordial bytes so to cloak. Macrowaved in a home reactor once manufactured for express rotten purpose of narcotic manufacture and consumption.  Uploaded the old fashioned (and therefore unsuspecting) android market way, if you can remember all the way back to that hideous year before El Nina took a chunk out of the environmental minimalist movement which, like the hard copy environment of that time,  never recovered.

The new nomenclature was no thrilling departure, as one might have guessed in the long-winded leading up to nothing way some conservatives and less than 1% ers do, in between their cuban cigars and anchovy kipper zipper stress-relieving practices. Don't hold your breathe now, here is:  Google Earth (sponsorship secured with global permissions circa 2049, an economically entropic time). This was a hearkening back to the name google, which had somehow disappeared at bermuda triangle coordinates after it unmoored from its Sunnyvale tomb and floated like the IPO to giant balloon heights. The same kind the less than 1%ers fired up toward the beginning of the 21st century in their ever so fascinating addictions to ego and stock inflation. Those capitalist and postcapitalist social democratic times were brutal at best. The brain everdeveloping into new labryinths and having always to float a lifeline or boot up Help services. The disability funds were soon to be universalized and re-insured, as they reached astronomical yet uniform standardized atmospheres.

Everything was for sale. Despite all these machinations political, economic, social or otherwise, she grounded herself in her understanding of the world. Everything was still for sale. Sales and consumption drives ran like rivulets down the walls to the stops and the ninety degree shifts, to the locks and the twistcap downs and turns. She could be flexible. Yoga was in her repetoire. Lucille Balle had nothing on her. She was a solid metrotechnohipnocrat of her day. Or that was the word her friend Amber made up for her one day as they dehopscotched along the navipod sidebar that took them tangibly wherever they wanted to go and their favorite: nowhere fast!

Here the yinyang of the  DIY / DDIY (dont do it yourself) netpacing  crawls and lifts and lifts and defragments. Not unlike todays fog masses clearing liquids out of the windows. Moving and angling and growing into the space of the maplewood or whatever wood the less than 2% milkers could line rooms with in and of the single story, suntouched spread she and many others not to be necessary to name called home. The many plants assured them of a jungle to take refuge from a jungle.

Still ritual takes place in its unceremonial ongoing manner, dry as a bone. Fly a streamer from the mobil station, center of town, center left, over a lap of a wave of a  baby hill up to the stiff wooden white painted walls of the American simple standard churchhouse. With standard deluxe whitewashed steeple. They all looked up as they walked there sluggishly or briskly on sundays. Brisk or sluggish, thin or overdrawn, guant or dressed in bleached whites like a swan, they all looked up. The standard steeple Colored the mind at dawn on the lawn before the recently felled trees waiting for the flatbeds long  waiting to be hoisted and slid lengthwise down in that new embarrassing branchless formation which now became clear to the hundreds of year old oaks which steadfast made and still make our country and her shadows, north of tennessee, somewhere around the border of Kentucky there? hard to sense exactly where the oaks begin claiming the climate and the undersoil, turning up pavement with a childs sweep of the palm kinda motion out of the roots come one heavy-handed spring storm, all the thunder and lightning you can take, and all the electricity thats been short-circuiting your heart and making you stumble over words, rollin your eyes around to find it, what you lost and will never have back, something carefree, something nurtured and nursed, something they found most precious and valuable... something you could not abide. why? why?

to not be dys continued

Friday, 18 November 2011

Citizen # K (subsection A)

Imagine, walking around all day behind Citizen #K

She got the tempwork off some market app on her smartphone. Yeah. Probably play was where she shopped. Right after coldcuts cooked in a rice cooker with just a bit of olive oil... okay, water will suffice because we have no olive oil no stovetop no facilities and no mind after it all. Call it the redeeming virtue of the conscious woman today. She has a nose for inventory. She will arrive the very day the prime rib and the leftover Alaskan king crab legs are let go. She catches the loaves of bread on MLK. She flaunts her strategic coverage of the most coveted recyclables. Okay she dumpster dives like a champ. Lets repeat it, Jim, and this time notch up or two the amp.

All she had to do was provide electronic signatures on top of her email address and the # of her phone. She could talk however she wanted, with false accents or simply drooling monotone. She figured minimal interaction with the world might stem her heavy feeling of being truly alone. Sure, she might never look her authority in the eyes, or meet coworkers for calzones or talk in escalated excitement of motivational capitalist ideology.

Girls were almost expected at times to jump into falsetto, she remembered, having been a corporate slug for a horrible epoch in her twenties. She saw the stressed out blood green ghost on the sixth and seventh chords strike out from the roots of her beautiful long dishevelled hair.

She found herself, she did. Post some toilet paper diploma bricking up the fast food management scene, headed toward airports and rental limousines. That was when her head fell in love with a bicycle she saw being pedaled by a young woman not unllike herself in age and carriage. Among all the industrious nonsense and heavy sounds of friction between metals and vacuum sucking and air pushing machine breath. Among all the crap that was baseline for any goddamn capitalist monster of a dream. Starfux takes no prisoners. Show up like soldiers, wear your uniform. Shine your teeth for the smile. Do not clock out late or dare stay a while.

She fell out just in the knick of time. Shook off the seduction of quarterly sales dinners and napa valley small batch merlots and pinot noir to polish you off and cast a vineyard cover of night over your dissipating understanding of hell on earth within the context of a six figure salary and hardly time to sleep off the corporate burn off of the true yearning for rat race recidivism rates skyrocketing and She turned over lots of her understanding to the phone. The phone now told her the time. Not the sun. The phone oriented her with its cool hd compass. She no longer learned how to get out of getting lost.

Friday, 4 November 2011

holy days, unholy nights

She had just finished supergluing the iron-on patches to her black jeans, shamelessly, when the BBC reported her city and the night before, the scandalous yet predictable situations that played out on the streets when certain dice were cast and rolled and bounced into a combination of numbers which, when added together, spelled trouble.

self-portrait. October. K by K.
the kind of numbers # she could coherently put together for you on a gray cloud with a silver-stained lining, and halloween behind the ears like a cool whip of winter winds on the nape of your neck, a sweet lick. Sick! When someone in any given room in any given west side victorian half-rehabbed three story apartment had mind to meet the fullness of her face the fullness of her hot stare, the depth of her purpose you can believe just like you buy the street talk on the east side in a slurpee swishersweet rhetoric, ghetto to the bone, descended from the self-made men like Douglas, Frederick. 

the facts: the modus operandi of the U.S. Economy gave allowance to money-stuffed lobbyists with their snake oil sad puppet show in the anteroom of the Oval Office and salivating over the possibilities of taking hold of a fat chunk of the peoples purse, aka Walmart style, and fashioning of it something in its own imprint; lets call it a tribute, a remembrance, something made of granite with a marble skin maybe, a monument, something that will last long past us, in time we trust, until entrusted to the 24/7 receiving dock called the ground, mother earth, in truth no matter how you play it, she's waiting to catch ya with her big widespread smile and open arms like you never seen! 
me and gee-gee. by K

Maybe you consider yourself lucky. Blessed. Cause you might have imagined this for yourself. This life beyond todays reality. Guess no fears will paralyze you or divide you from your intention and purpose, macro were talking. Micro sent to the back of the mess hall... in no uncertain terms: Micro? we sent packing. 
hollowscene, ten thirty-one, eleven. K by K.
Yes! finally its your turn toward the bright lights big macro city, let it happen like a jam, slow. You gotta go with it as it hits, dont fight, nah, dont fight the flow. Stay a comfortable distance from the yayo, breathe in the air from the extro to the endo, outside in, eradicate all sin, eradicate piss and vinegar venom so the social occupants see you through into the fresh intelligent bloodclot of baby boomer babies in unity, almost magically! rock steady. 

Standing with honor, standing steadily in the face of riot gear five ohs, suburban cops now face to face with the history of a hard city American, face to face it turns out with the very wave which is inviting the so-called opposition into the spray and healing salt waters of american daughters with their scarves wrapped like a flag, falling then they tag the american sons and daughters, depends on how you orient yourself, gravitating somewhereabouts, regardless of class, race, status, wealth, she determine where she stop to hangout, where she is most welcome, the air, sees to the doubt, vaporized with a snap, trail of water overchlorinated, straight out the city tap.




Saturday, 1 October 2011


don't go

Blurs the world
       and then you
                         fall

Alongside it
           Parallel processes
iswhat theycall
 it

 You
      fall
                away

 from one
           another
               from your     self

image?
imagine
anywayoulookatit-  its
damage

No matter how hard you pray
 even if
you pray
every
goddamn
day

Befalls you
     likeness
             nesssssss

Each morning
(when you come to)
Slap your face
girl

Drink your coffee
black like his
black
was yours
before he ever knew
black
beforeheeven -
loved
black

you were black
had it black
drank it black
rose black

when snakes
were otherways
symbolized
other
ways
other
wise

Wait! don't go
be
be.ours
code it
mirror
ours. be

ob
literate
rated
consumed?!
no
never no no no
never
mind no
think


ate
eight
sideways
infinity!
eyes
situated
seen

ob
scene
(a dirty word?)
think


short
of its qualite
verite

ob
long
(traces hold on barely!)
in song
feel


Ob
literate
ate
 twice as much
Still you lack
still you come back,
comma 
feel


comme lit
vulva
hood
sensate
clit

Cut yourself
 some slack 
awkward
awk.
period
time of month
once honored?
twice mocked

breast enhance
in the fall
leaves something less
redux

ack
look at that
rack

smiling eyes
over the canyon
grande
few inches average
elevation

milk shake
nation
ack. awk.
gawk
heart attack

You better 
soon
sure sure sure
if you feel it
do it soon
sure sure sure

new
waxing
waning...
full moon

suresuresure!
whatever

the moment
umm....
momentum
needs your all
you got

kinda lead
kinda cheer

sure sure sure but
soon!
employ
plot
devise

sure sure sure
remember
memory
ember

the fire !
the flame
flickers
falls out
back
to uncolored
to
the same

more of
less

wants you back...
wants you what
you want what
you track what
you back you
backtrack
ack


you go
getter
letter
deliver
soon 
let her


sure sure sure
forever stamps

sure sure
those ones they them
thematic? 
whatever

go
show her
get her
let her

to the hills!
to the fields!
to the small patches
unseen
unheard of
let her

they will
they will rise
yes
sure for sure
for sure for her for sure!

they will
we will
all will
get her


so
 no
   more if ands buts


so
sew and stitch
soul spirit
7 side ways
and able
to table and blood
blood let
her

Wednesday, 14 September 2011

ffreewrite # 444 (cycling and recycling a difficult time)


La Verite was nowhere to be found. Faux F saw to it, the absence. In a tap of the toes FF took over the town. A chill cast over the roads trees dirt homes faces ankles toes toenails. Toenails soft as reflections bent around the way only to be bent back around. Compensation had long ago, long long ago you know, fled the sapling exchange-post. Some kinda store. Little Bit took off as much as she could chew. Such was her purpose so to do. The red book she swore by, see, back was broken and quite mostly paper maiche- in look, not essence, kinda book you actually read, ya kinda book if you could you would read and read all day...Essential, said book.  But no longer readable. Broken down and put out to pasture. Replaced by a goddamn kindle! Oh no! Tragic? you would think so! Until the world turned green, and so many retired books and tapes and godawful 8-trax all suddenty felt the heat of the sunlight again, valued again, all of them! Recyclables! Like even after she got through mashin' the shit out of it, too! Who? Little LilBit. True. Truetrue. She rejected all she knew. All her life. She was about 28. Saturn come round.

Fuck If I Knew met Act like U Know in the street that day. Their four eyes cast solid between them. In a sound, a sound resound, they did meet. The solid cast caste eyes of cold steel gaze. used to cold steel ways and forays. Stone on stone and stone cold, too. They cornered the day's stone cold market. Cornered, quartered, drawn, iced. Then sent to be refabricate and back to 6/10ths of all 7/11s in stamped lottery fare scratched out by bored coin thrown here, thrown there. Too casually placed to attract what everyone never wanted to attract, mostly -- stares. Faux Froid made sure to oil the streets for this very equation, however. The referent to this will not be put out front. Main street will let the side alleypass scuffles continue. You and me will endure it without a choice in the matter. Its not ours to choose. The odds predict neither win, nor lose. Not mathematical but street made occcasion. Upon them. Upon the street. Body. Bodies. Body upon body. Upon bodies. All was stacked and Stacked was not favoring Nobody!

 Nobody had become quite accustomed to the comfort of being very non-celeb in the non-profit world in which she lived. Some suggest profited, too. No matter! Nobody basked in the space made for her wherever she went, she commented often to her friends Somebody, Everybody, G.Money, Jane Smith, and all the spirits in between how one must feel the wonder and appreciate the beauty of the spaces between bodies at this modern age delivered them. Such a primitive and yet prodigious commentary was unheard of. Nobody could efface the English language in any such which way. anywhichwaybutblue! came across the neurons and fired them for the statement preceding. Contradictions must be contradicted. Even if this meant life must go on this way, and endless series of contradictions contradicing and splicing contradictions. Afflicted with afflictions, some were. Nobody always knew. There were often a few kids meanwhile caught like in spiderwebs, tied up in her hemm. Nobodys, thats Who!

 She held the boundary there. Everybody knew it. Somebody said something. G.Money thought to profit, c.r.e.a.m. -siecle. While Jane Smith still was so busy answering wrong numbers on her home line, poor thang never caught up with the times and got berated on talk show generics, for not showing any kinda open mind even to her unfair treatment of her twelve year old daughter. her twelve year old daughters six year old fascination turned cool interest in rap music. The white association in this case was transparent to most if not all, even nobody. Fear of interracial goings on! Loving, sexing, seeding, breeding, Jane called it. She funneled all this goddamn crap (with great fear left behind, where it counts) down the same drains her CEO husband Jon Smith X built expressly to run the drainage of daily thermal nuclear wasteproduct produced by his brilliance: aka side effect style.                    


She did not dare Narc on him though whites knew the siphoning to be as surreptitious as it was dangerous down the river a ways. down where the white community and real estate parted ways. down far enough and away to be handed off shamelessly to areas unincorporated and lesser know than that! who knows and who cares lands! where gathered en masse those negroes who frightened her and hers by their difference alone, color stature, manner of speaking? who knows who cares? everyone and no one, of course we know now, or knew then when we were talking or thinking about it, god forbid even excited by salt whisperings of great sea change.

They, the ones careful on these lands they knew, on whose fields they cared and damn! if the river they inherited was black coal tar fire oil, so it must be! They would make use of it somehow. As they must. As they knew and know still. Just as they always knew clear as day of the unclean business of race in this land so-called united. yet faced state after state more divisive. For free labor is hard to accept and then not. The matter of property defined and labor lost, was to the North American settlers a topic on fire more and more. Hot and then hotter than hot! The dark-skinned among them knew hot when it was Faux Froid. Understood segregation as it was, truly, La Verite so unnatural. Only by habit, by habit -- made natural by habit. And furthermore understood how survivors will first and foremost survive! however violently. however against any internal morality or code of ethics. Eat! Survive! Grasp! then toward peace if they must.

Such was how it was, and became clearer, but not to they who knew and were under it, who could not have stood nearer the heat of the matter. Well they told Miss Jane Smith, in all her swanesque accoutrements! They told her to her face, for her benefit. The colored women told her her husband's cost-cutting measures was a scandalous if not treacherous DL operation, poisoned wells and waterways, fouled the potable essence and life-giving source! No joke!

Miss Smith however laughed, uncomfortably so. She found these confronteurs to be irreverent, highly! lacking etiquette and poise! She tried best she could but could not shut her ears to their noise! Overtook her it did, day by day, and overrun her it would, in no time. Her entire sense of herself to her horror she found flushed down those very network of siphoned PV pipedream become nightmare untold and unheard, hushed hushed by the whole town of major minority. By decision. Not so much with derision or intention to coverup or forget. Rather driven by a great and wide sea of experience in the past century since the trade of men and women and children to slavery down deep south and still fresh as the sun in the sky and dew on the grasses the fields; experience of those who survived the telling to the supremekeepers (in form across the land in those days) by minority mouths of deeds! terrible deeds! done against their own pale kind, by their kind. By their kind, to their kind! One in a kind scandal! ... Those who survived this particular sort of telling  or reporting of yesterday, survived simply in some cases by not telling.


So the rivulets grew from particles from beads to small streams from slipstreams, then converged, nuclear dilution and pollution and Miss Smith herself in some compromised liquidation. All went by so fast! Down a drain, what a rush. Eddys out then called back to the ruined whole of the whole. What a rush to the fuckin' face with a nike swoosh, on forehead (and the lace), demonstrably positioned (poorly placed)! Like authority or ego outgrowing itself -- irrevocably exposed, and so out of place. In error of ways. Not making sense. so all sense falls away...  no capitals no grammar no fuckin' care neither eh ha! whadda do whaddada dada dada da- ah!?! without any closure you they it have found or been given recourse to from above below...the....your their they're hers his very end. In finite. Infinity.

 La Verite? The Truth, formerly of the  aka mia missing? in what country Nobody knew but would not yet tell for the telling. Everybody understood her suddenly, La Verite! Cause all in all what was happening was that obvious moment, that mindful moment no one could ignore, not only due to trauma but adrenaline pumping excitement; not only adrenaline excited moments neither but also mundane moments exactly in between! mathematically come correct! algorhythmically snapped out of the hips! Executed through ninety one eighty three sixty and or more or less kind of flips of the flexible at heart.... for it was they who stood there in no poor shape at the end. The same, they say. Who stood so consciously! So energetically (in collaboration duly noted. What with chills of Faux Froid passed through and delivered)... at the just as sudden start.


The spirits. in the spaces between and apart and far from, are yet to be hemmed in, anyway. The spirits swayed in  unison with and out of synch then. Consonance and dissonance together holding hands. Not necessarily about coming together by choice for some-all. Forces above and beyond human comprehension, of all-some. And more out of synch are the spirits, with the reeds, the grasses, the grains, Ceres. With the some-all. Against the all-some...as pressure to force a synch came upon the fooled. Then, once that was forgotten....the spirits, well, they swayed in the fields. Such was the telling. The telling by the told. As the untelling, by the untold... like tommorrow, as was yesterday is today.

Wednesday, 7 September 2011

Heart Holds a Vacancy

the Sea
her depths grow out from green
                       from green to royal blue
Where
all our lies get hot 
              get salty 
Liquidate 
into butter 
Congeal
into residue

residual
of which

Constitutes the laundry list 
of lies 
uncommon
picked for 
pulled for


Juice 
 Energy
  Extraction


By decree of part-sentients
(part-not)
sworn to secrecy

Whose vows have been 
exacted
 spoken
  logged
   attributed
    catalogued


the precise configurement 
figured
 configured
  drawn off the slight balance of
   good will 
    accounted 
K by Katya 2011
     for

then left
 here in this courtyard
  where touched 
         touched by the elements
      
 Produce a serum
  bottled
   capped
    guarded 
     2 men 
     2 the vial


There a discordance 
a shaking of foundations
if the color hits the litmus test
and meets other requirements unknown
you can tell by the sound:
a hollow tone


The amplification 
of which
discards
 shucks
  throws off
   any and all 
    antagonist untruths

(left brown and dyscolored in the foamy froth) 

the purified potion
 then drained
  hits a shade resembles goth 


The scientists stand 
 satiate
  fatigued
   admiring
edge of tide pool...

Truth!
Taken from the scene
 from the light

  double encrypted 
   left inaccessible
    walled off

Truth!
Like pores 
touched by witch hazel
 locked behind skin
   sealed from the world
    and her sin

Truth!     
Language is lost
 in the crowd
  of the avowed
K by Katya 2011

Truth!

Eyes tell of suffering 
naked like ankles 
 bit by geese  

  scraped on thorns
   bleeding until clotted

    sometimes 
             

Truth!
 found
  retrieved then
   hidden
    until she may be 
     cloned
      replicated
                   
              


   
For now
we are left with the same old
             same old
caked makeup  
 meet low-grade rubber
       (wall ball material circa '79) 

smoke trails and
salvage yards
 
highways
bits of plastic
bits of plaster

just another
man-made disaster

For now


we are left with our scars
  on water 
  steady boiling
   like poached eggs

For now
A double-breasted back-stabbing 
On Front Street by the boardwalk
The perp

vanishes in a fog of 
Chat Room Twitter
by Katya 2011

The forensics team drinks coffee
the coffee 
sure is bitter 


For now
the lies proliferate
canvass our nation:
gas consumption fever! 
TV vacation!


what once was compromise
now has no promise:
each for his own
all or none mentality




Long island teas comped
on a corporate spread 
for the so-called VIPS 
for the pros 

Young runaways
expose thighs
to highball bids 
much too low...

Is this not enough 
exploitation
and suffering?
to pry open the crypt 
where collective truths 
are kept? 

Until then I will hold
for all the good people
a vacancy
 in my heart
  unparalleled...

 a love enduring
         unequalled
          uncommon 
      and
      true

from me to you