Tuesday, 6 March 2018

ptsd in me

years back
some awful stuff
i witnessed
i lived

i carried a diagnosis

a gang of sensations
they still oppress me
from time to time

i know it's this inability to relax or feel calm
for days on end. particularly around dreaded

i know it's how i check the deadbolts again and again
and still cannot feel safe

in my own home
in my own head
in the fellowship of friends

despite the love
of family

i hope it goes away
but if it doesn't
i can be thankful
i survived