sudden 2

noon comes and goes

god i am tired
my neck and eyes hurt
all forty some years of me
but i endure

tomorrow when the
sky turns i will roar like a tiger
to the whistle of steam

fuck all the noise
i got it in my mind to help

somebody 

there's all kinds of ways i

choose one

#katyamills

all in

i put all in and got nothing out going home empty felt like i got crossed i swore i demanded more it made me sick i got better i thought my best was no good and i oh how wrong i was cause i had the power to put all in and life was simple but wouldn't stay that way i kept at it i put all in and i fought for it and that alone led to wealth beyond the wildest dreams   #katyamills

allostasis

dishonest with herself 

on truths she could not countenance

she gave the world the middle finger 

not because she hated life because

she loved it

#katyamills

we wait...

4 someone to text us back
4 our luck to change
4 the rain 2 cleanse our soul
4 inspiration when we have none
4 that old laughter between us
4 our frog legs 2 defrost
4 our hearts to pump blood
back into our sleepy limbs

that old silence
the water comes to boil
the trees start to sway
lean into the wind
flexing their roots
night and day
we wait

2 feel the coffee warm our insides
2 feel the cold predawn penetrate us
2 pee in a cup for a new job
2 get over it
2 feel

#katyamills

eldorado resort casino. reno

spectrum girls in their dresses 

after the ball. in and out the ladies room

to spot check reflections and make 

themselves perfect. 10 bucks for 

penny slots the eye of a chaperone

nearby

a man in a wheelchair

passed out with his jacked 

pulled over his head

hiding from the games alive and ready 

to be played 

the earthbound ones laid out
their demands. then dissembled
into innumerable grains 

of sand

#katyamills

biggest little city in the world

 

touched by the gods

encircled by sierra peaks

Reno is some half century old Vegas

pawnshops and desperate cowboys

who lost they hats but found

they girls under the grand 

marquee

#katyamills

votive remix

deceased lay the flower beds toxic and soaking perspiration thick as glue. we passed the ethereal fields cranked the shaft flipped a bitch and sailed due north, the agonists and antagonists darting out from the shadows. we released the nitrous oxide mixed with half and half burned the white sage whole off the stern.

petitioned a ragtag battalion of orcas like white blood cells to seal in the heat, caustic energies aft and starboard, signals blaring into the night. the candles they flickered and danced.  #katyamills